Devotional Reflection:
Today, I speak not from a place of ease, but from the trenches of endurance. I speak as someone who has walked through the valley—who still walks through it—and yet continues to lift my eyes to the hills, knowing where my help comes from.
Each morning, I rise with the weight of Blood Cancer pressing within my body. I take three times a day—oral chemotherapy that leaves me fatigue, and nauseated before I fully rise for the day. I am in an immunocompromised state so I have to wear a mask. My iron is low, My joints ache. My knee shifts and shoulder impingement. When your bone marrow is under attack it affects your bones, and joints. My spine reminds me of it every year I’ve lived. And yet, I rise. My banner says you do not have to look like what you're going through, Thank You JESUS!
I manage diabetes alongside cancer. I monitor blood sugar, take insulin, and brace myself for the unpredictable swings that come with it. Some days I feel strong. Other days, vertigo grips me without warning, and the world spins while I cling to a wall, praying for it to stop. I’ve stood alone in hallways, on sidewalks, in silence during episodes of vertigo. I used to love walking to the shopping center on Pennsylvania Ave & Branch on my own. I'm experiencing an episode of vertigo as cars go by. No one stopped to see what was wrong as I held onto that stone wall — unseen by passersby, but never unseen by God.
I’ve been in hospitals with sinus tachycardia, infections, and skin abscesses. I’ve watched my hair fall in patches, and I’ve felt the sting of bruises that appear without cause. I’ve cried. Not too long ago had kidney surgery and was diagnosed with partial collapsed lungs. I’ve prayed. I’ve questioned. And still—I’m here.
Not because I’m strong. Not because I’m lucky. But because of Grace.
God’s Grace & His Mercy is not always loud. Sometimes it whispers in the quiet moments when I feel forgotten. Sometimes it holds me when I can’t hold myself. Sometimes it simply says, “You’re still here. And that’s enough.”
So today, I speak to every soul who feels overwhelmed by the weight of their diagnosis, their pain, their unanswered questions. You are not alone. You are not invisible. You are not forgotten.
You are still here—by Grace and In His Grace we become Gracefully Broken
And as long as you are here, there is Purpose. There is Hope. There is JESUS.
Let us keep Seeking Him. Desperately. Faithfully. Boldly.
Amen!
This is the Intro to Desperately Seeking Jesus 111 Part 2
Amen! But first let's Worship Him with this ministering song
Gracefully Broken by Tasha Cobbs Leonard
In The Sincerity of THE HOLY SPIRIT
Sister Seer Trudy
GRACEFULLY BROKEN
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