God Is Not Through With Me Yet!
In the Eye of The Storms you will find
(Jesus)
There are times in every Christian's life were the storms of life becomes too heavy for us to bare. It seems as though everywhere you turn adversities is at every corner in illness, lost of loved ones, financial stress, over bearing responsibilities, wayward children, false persecution, The mother who has dementia starts to become more aggressive in behavior, the attacks against you because of your faith start to increase. When the enemy comes in like a flood this becomes an open opportunity for us to stand still and Watch the Salvation of The Lord, as He raises a standard against the Enemy.
Pay close attention to the Spiritual Shifting that is taking place all around you at such a time as this. Frustration begins to rise while others are watching to see if you are going to lose it. We learn as followers of Christ, and come to the understanding that Jesus is our Salvation. This is my Testimony of how God use us in the middle of our storms to be a witness to Glorify His name as He direct our path. Every Storm has a mission in it. It is only when we focus on the winds and waves, and not The Lord we seem to miss it. Trust me when I say that it is only when we focus on the impact of the storm, the winds smack you harder. The Calm of The Storm is centered in The Eye of it.
Right in the middle of it all The Prince of Peace is right there redirecting the whole situation, even when you have yet to see it. In the book of Job his storms was on the Richter Scale beyond measure and consider as a huge catastrophe when described in The book of Job chapter 1. But yet He quotes - If a man dies shall he live again? All the days of my appointed time will I wait, till my change come. We now know that the answer is yes we will live again according to The Word in John 3:16 - For God so loved the world, that he gave His only begotten Son, that whosoever believeth in Him should not perish but have Everlasting Life.
There will be a change to wait for, so while we wait for that change we hold on to the word quoted in Isaiah - They that wait upon The Lord shall renew their strength: they shall mount up with wings as eagles; they shall run, and not be weary; and they shall walk, and not faint. Those who wait on The Lord. I am still weather the storm through my Lord Jesus The Christ. When the hiccups of life is more than a hiccup, This is the time to grip on to His unchanging hand. I come to realize through every side track to my recovery is really God divine intervention arranging the needs to accommodate my healing while transitioning me to another level in my spiritual walk with Him. Within the last three weeks the winds were more like Tornadoes.
In The Vortex Of Your Situation
Will You Still Be Deeply
Rooted in Jesus?
Tornadoes move things that are in place out of position, and shifting things out of the way as it rearrange things to a different format. Reshaping and uprooting whatever is in its path. It depends on what you use for shelter when the storms begins to rage in your life that makes the difference. What are you anchored too in the middle of the Deep, when the tidal waves roll in overflowing everything in its path, and a change begins? Since I been in this whirlwind of circumstances concerning my health while caring for my mother who has dementia, finance has not been enough. My sister who was paying my moms phone bill notify me she cannot continue since she is now on retirement and her funds are less.
In my trials I begin wondering how am I going to pay the bills, it’s time for the rent to increase resources is short. My applying for disability is now left to a lawyer, my health insurance has put certain test I needed on hold, because of the kind of insurance I have, discrimination against people on medicaid is more revealed now than ever, and has escalated. My Care doctor for three years has now abandon me just before my surgery, which has been postponed due to a blood disorder that was found during my lab work which puts me at risk if the surgery was performed.
A condition that put me on stand still until the blood smear and CT scan is done. I went for the CT scan scheduled for 10:30 Sat 05/27/17 and was waiting for two hours before I was informed by the radiologist that he cannot perform the test without contrast. The referral sent in by my former doctor ask for the procedure to be done without contrast. So I had to get the referral updated. The problem with this is I have no primary care doctor to authorized it, and was not reassigned one. The stand in primary care doctor did not responded to the request for the lab smear neither the CT scan.
The winds begin to increase while the water rises. Here I stand still waiting for my change to come while another wave rolls in at approximately 7:30 pm on 05/31/17 after a busy day with relatives from out of town pays me a surprise visit. My two cousin one who lives in Waldorf Md the other from Ohio concerned for my health opens a conversation about the Healthcare System and the problems related to how we are covered, and how we are not. Plus catching up on miss time while snapping some pictures, a beautiful time for me and my mother with relatives.
After their departure later on that evening I start experience heaviness in my chest and shortness of breath I call the 24 hr nurse line of my health insurance, and was informed to call 911 immediately. So now I end up in the ER. This Is when I can only say Wow! Now Let The Praise Begin. Halleluuuuuuuuuuuuuuujah!!! As I was riding in the ambulance strapped to the stretcher a young Hispanic girl in her early 20’s is my assistant. I look at her and ask are you in school? She responded not now but she is not sure what she is going to do. She is from NY and has difficulties deciding whether to stay here or go back home because of financial problems. It’s not easy for me she stated. I ask her about her faith, she reply she’s Catholic. I said well that means you believe in Jesus she responded yes.
The Lord had me quote to her that if you seek the Kingdom of God, and all of His righteous then all things will be added unto to her, but you have to trust in The Lord for all your provision he will supply all of your needs according to His purpose. Before I know it I was ministering to this young girl while I’m in distress quoting If you trust in The Lord with all your heart lean not unto your own understanding acknowledge Him in all thy ways, and He will direct your path. Then I ask her name and she responded Katherine I ask about family and friends. I said I will be praying for you.
We arrive at PG hospital and as they let the stretcher down and roll me in she start holding my hand I said it is going to be alright just go to the Lord in prayer talk with Him just as you would ask your mother or father, for He is our father in the name of Jesus, He here’s you. This young lady bow her head and kiss my hand then said thank you. I responded it is the Lord you give thanks to for using me to speak to you. I will continue to pray for you. In the middle of my distress God uses me to speak to this young lady. While the ER doctor hook me up to a EKG the effect of The Holy Spirit brings me to recall the devotional Go!
In every circumstance there's a moment when The Lord uses me to speak in someone’s spirit. The gentleman who perform the EKG said to me It is nice to see some ladies that still wear dresses as he compliment my dress which had to be removed for the test while I was lying on the stretcher. This response was a reply to a not to good comment made by a nurse regarding what I had on when she quoted in a negative tone - women don't wear these type of clothes any more as she looks at me, often it is usually pants, shorts, or minnie’s skirts.
What makes a nurse in the middle of caring for someone make a negative statement towards your attire at a time as this? The man say to her - women are beautiful when they are in their femininity, and He believed that this was the way God intended women to dress, not the things you see today. This becomes another opportunity to Glorified The Lord God in the middle of it all, of course we talk about Jesus. When he finished, they took me in for a chest X-ray's, and other tests to do with the heart.
A stress test was performed through an injection of some type of medicine to cause my heart to beat faster as if I was exercising, due to the meniscus tear in my knee it prohibit me from running. They performed the test the next morning, then another one of what seems to be a sonogram of my legs to my upper thighs, as well as my chest. They were checking for clotting. After all was said and done Gerd is the condition found, and was causing my chest pains with shortness of breath. But because of my increased platelets in my blood, and my high white cell count they had to run all these test to make sure my blood was not clotting.
The doctor instructed me to follow up with my hematologist, gastrologist, primary care doctor for a further look in the blood disorder, which could be what causing these extra problems. A total change in my diet is recommended also since colitis is one of my health issues. Stress is what I been going through with all these ailments forming up in my body. This turns into an outcried for My Lord to step in. I text the prayer warriors The Holy Spirit informed me to pray for me which was my Pastor, Kendrick Curry at the Pennsylvania Baptist Church as well as Rev. Karen Curry, and Kristal Brown my deacon Michael Brown’s wife, both profound mentors and teachers in God’s Kingdom at PABC. and Minister Ebony Shirley.
I was released from the hospital the next day another med added for me to take. The chest pressure I endure had me convinced it was a heart attack the shortness, of breath (The Breath) and the rise in my pulse, but it was not until my encounter with young Katherine, The Lord uses me to speak to her as we pray, that the Prince of Peace steps in. Glory to the Highest of praise. Tension took my mind off The Lord, but when you talk about the goodness of The Lord while you’re in pain, The Holy Spirit will remind us of how He is In the middle of your storm.
The Holy Spirit reminded me about how the electric bill was paid up for three months, and I am still perplex about who done this. He says it was Him, He remind me how the phone bill and DSL bill decrease down to only one price of $26 for both, a package deal by divine intervention. Not only was I able to paid the phone bill, but I got DSL with it for lesser than what my sister was paying for the phone alone. Won’t God do it? The Lord said It was Him, The Rent increase for only $2 Wow! Glory be to God in the Highest, It was God. All I had concerns about was taken care of as I am going through, every provision needed God provided, He is so Amazing so whatever comes my way The Lord show me He Got This!
Halleluuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuujah. Can’t wait until my return back into The house of The Lord. I’m still going through, but the final word Is of The Lord. The Other tests that were on delay has been taken care of one, the CT scan finally on Wed 6/7/17, and the blood smear on 6/9/17 has just been completed waiting on the results from the Hematologist I’m schedule to see on 6/14/17 which is on a Wed, but I have an appointment with my New Primary Doctor on the 6/12/17 at 4pm at Unity Health Center at Parkside. The results will determine whether my Orthopedic Surgeon can proceed with my knee surgery, and it seem my knee is getting better, except for occasional pain and stiffness the tear in the meniscus remains for now. Through the storm, and the waves along with the winds Jesus is in The middle of it all.
Mark (4:37) KJV - says- And there arose a great storm of wind, and the waves beat into the ship, so that it was now full. And he was in the hinder part of the ship, asleep on a pillow: and they, (The Apostle) awake him, and say unto him, Master, carest thou not that we perish? And He arose, and rebuked the wind and said unto the sea, Peace, Be Still. And the wind ceased, and There was a Great Calm. As the anointed song by Rev. James Cleveland lyrics says - (The winds and the waves shall obey His will, peace be still. Whether the wrath of the storm toss the sea, or demons, or men, or whatever it be. No water can swallow the ship where lies, The Master of the ocean, the earth, and the skies).
I encourage you all to focus on the center of your situation, which is in the Eye of your storms, where The Calm Is. You will find The Prince of Peace (Jesus) In the middle of it all. Mark (4:41) After witnessing The Master in action they comment among themselves and said with exceedingly fear - What manner of man is this, that even the wind and the sea obey Him? I found the answer to this question in The Calm of my storms, and His name is Jesus. The author and the finisher of my Faith because He thought I was worth Saving so, He came into my life. He thought I was worth keeping, so He filled me up inside, He thought I was to die for, so He sacrifice His life so I can be free, so I can be whole, so I can tell everyone I know.
I had a series of dreams last year 2016 during the lenten season and we went to different churches all the way up to the Resurrection Day. The day we commemorate The Life, Death and Resurrection of our Lord and Savior Jesus Christ. I made an appointment with my Pastor, Dr. Kendrick Curry in order to get some clarity on what The Holy Spirit was showing me. There were other dreams that start flowing in one after another, so Pastor instructed me to write them down three times and place three spaces between each one then and right the dream down again. He sent me a blog on dreams based on the bible and how to interpret them through the Holy Spirit. This started to revealed to me some of the understanding of What The Lord was showing me. One of the dreams is playing out right now in the middle of this trail and it was this one -
I was coming from Pen & Branch shopping center, and on my way home there was snow on the ground at least two feet of snow, but there was a path I was walking that lead down Pennsylvania Ave, and I turn off that path suddenly to the side, and there was someone following behind me who looks to be very angry and he was grumbling. In the grumbling of his words he said as he look towards me - It seems that every time I get ready to do something, something interferes with what he was getting ready to do. These were the words mumble as he was going by me. Another person appeared behind me and said to me do you know who he is? I turn and reply no and the person said this person has killed several people, but has not been charged yet so as I return to the path, this person escort me the rest of the way as we past that same angry man he still was grumbling.
The angry man represent the demonic forces trying to hinder, and steer me off the path the The Lord has place me on. The grumbling words were the contradicting thoughts the enemy was placing in my mind. The person then escorted me lead me down the path to safety. This person that lead me to safety is The Holy Spirit. This path lead me up a walkway and I was at Eastover Shopping Center. I was walking up the sidewalk I looked up into the sky and what seem to be a tornado was forming above. I said to the people that were around me at that time as I was pointing up into the sky - there is a tornado and just as I said it the rolling wind came down and was directing its path straight towards me. I try to run, but only I among the people the tornado landed on, but I was not harm and it went back up leaving me standing there, but unharmed.
I awaking from the dream. God revealed to me that the tornado is a series of storms and trials and adversities I’m going through right now that he allowed, but kept the enemy at bay. For he is in The middle of the whirlwind of adversity and is bringing me to another level. The snow represent the season my adversity started in January and the purity of The Lord. Just when I was called to teach and answer the calling when Dan and I begin to teach the young adult Sunday School classes The Enemy came in like a flood attacking my body and my mind and had me to question whether It was The Lord or not that call me to teach. But there’s is no doubt now, this and the completion to the book is what the enemy tried to stop me from doing.
The Lord allowed the Enemy to increase the pressure. But what the enemy did not anticipated was God’s divine intervention which only push more devotionals out of me that The Lord place in me in order to complete the first task which was the completion of this book, and now to start a blogging ministry, and return to teaching His Word as well as spread His gospel wherever I Go. Remember the devotional Go! Commission for the cause. The fullness of this revelation came to me throughout the week, shutting everything down and so I can communing more deeper with The Lord. I have finally completed this book. The Lord said this is only the beginning healing is on the way. I am in the middle of calm, an unbelievable calm. Haleluuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuujah!!! Peace Be Still. Whenever The Lord says Peace.
In The Sincerity of The Holy Spirit
Sis. Seer Trudy