The Drawing John 6:44

The Drawing
(John 6:44)

No one can come to Me unless

The Father who sent Me

draws them, and

I will raise

him

up at

the last day.

Hello Saints of God!  The Lord drop the word Drawing in my Spirit, so to the point I was sharing my first encounter with the Lord with others. Not when I first went to Church, not when the name of Jesus was first mention in my life, for it was and still is used as a cliche in speech when my mom see or hear something not right. Her words are (Well dooooo Jesus!) I mean when the door is not shut, or her TV station is not where she wants it, these words are phrase. Her cup of coffee is not on the table yet, and other incidents her repeated phrase is (Well do Jesus!), or (Well do Father!) was she really calling on the Lord. The first time I acknowledge Jesus was through my brother Ed who took me to a church he worship at.

I was in my teen years going through issue he had no knowledge at that time of.  But even then I was just going to Church. I utter the words yes when ask do you accept Jesus as your Lord and Savior. Now that I look back over my life I had no clue to what I was saying yes to. Everything sound good, but did I really understand? I began listening to gospel music that still  to today permeates my mind even-though I knew not Jesus. But something about the praise, and worship would move my spirit. I did not understand it then but I know now because it was, and still is The Spoken Word of God in Song which is the living Word of God that move my very soul.

My very first Unmistakable  Encounter was during a very dark time in my life dealing with my youngest daughter who ran away often, but at this time The police has given up looking for her due to her repeated actions of this. In their mind she will come home eventually, but as a mother who knows the streets I knew the possibility of her never returning, due to the dangers of the street life. My God she was only twelve years of age  this started at the age of eleven, but the police never put on the amber alert she was gone for about a month. I had my eldest daughter to care for, and had to make sure she goes to school and have a roof over her head. So taking off from work was not an option.

This is a mother's worst nightmare not knowing where your child is. It’s a pain that could not be console or comfort in any kind of way. I press my way to work every  morning with tears in my eyes, and all kinds of the what if’s running through my mind praying for The Lord to bring her back. Getting through a 8 hr work day and finishing up my tasks assigned to me. Going to different places for I work for a temp agency then. After a long day of work I came home, and stop in at the liquor store across the street from where I live, and buy a bottle of Tanqueray Gin and a pack of smokes. After dinner, and my eldest went to bed I’m alone in my room with tears running down my face.

I pull out the gin and a glass with ice in it. sat down at my desk in the room and start looking in the mirror just starring thinking about my daughter, whether she maybe dead, or pimp out by the predator pimps, or drug out somewhere not able to get home Lord bring my little girl home. We put flyers out in the stores my family help me and put some out in Maryland. My soul is tormented with the thoughts of her body being found, and discarded like trash in a dumpster somewhere. There were nights I would take a walk in search of her walking down alleys looking in trash dumpsters truly about to lose my mind. But this night Something came over me in that moment of despair.

 I stood up and went across the street to the mission to the woman who always stop me to talk about Jesus when I go into the liquor store. The mission was next door  so I walk in and a few were praying with mother Campbell and they were praying for me. I only knew mother Campbell. I had tears flowing that just could not stop. They greeted me and sat me up near the altar they continue to pray for me, then continue with service at this time of night, this was odd because I had no idea service was going on as I came in the mission. All I knew that something drew me there, I had a strong pull on me to go, I just had to get there and the presence of The Lord was on me, my spirit was groaning. I set up near the altar when service was over a voice said in my mind  now go home.

Tired, I went home and went into my room. The Gin and smokes I brought from the liquor store was still on the table untouched never opened, and a voice said pour out the Gin and throw the cigarettes away. What? How am I going to get through the night. The voice said if you want to be free throw the cigarettes away and pour out the Gin. The voice did not say if I do this I bring your child home, or If I do this  I will take away your pain. You know Like in the movies a voice speaks from a Aladdin's lamp and they rub it and get three wishes or promise riches, or some fairy waved her wand, and my child was home all that kind of stuff no this voice said- If You Want To Be Free do this. For some reason beyond my understanding I understood this, and act on it I poured out the whole bottle of Gin.

I could have taking it back and got my money back. But I pour it out and then took the smokes out back  and open the pack and tore up each cigarette then threw them in the dumpster. I went back into the house to my room the presence of The Lord was upon me. I fell to my knees by my bed and wept as The Lord spoke to me. I was Free right then and there seriously. I went to sleep and had no desire to drink or smoke, got up next morning went to work came home, and went to the mission for prayer and all that week I had no desire for a drink. I was able to go through the pain of my child still missing. There was a peace within me. I began to go to church, and bible study and began talking to the Lord. He began to instruct me through my days. He comfort me through the nights, until the day my child was finally found. I wanna make this clear my encounter happen out of nowhere suddenly in my deepest and darkest time in the middle of my hurt, and despair. I was preparing to drink myself to sleep. It has been a whole month my child been missing.

This was a moment in my life I felt no one could help me. I wanted to know where my child was. This is when my faith in The Lord began. I have been to church even as a child. All kinds of things has happen to me in my life before this now my child is missing, all the pain of abuse resurface just call me pain, for that's all I knew was pain, but God came and spoke to a wretch as me, He visit me at a time when I had nothing to reach for. My eldest daughter who at the time was fourteen years of age depended on me to get up and continue to provided for her, making sure she do not lose hope. She tried to console me, I could not let her know it wasn’t working. My love for her push me to continue as my love for my other daughter was tearing me apart. As I grew in the knowledge of GOD, I realize that THE VOICE I heard then is the same one Adam & Eve heard walking in THE GARDEN Gen 3;8 when the fall of man took place. That voice that ask you where are you? And you knew you were naked, and answered the call. God steps in. I wish I could say I never had any more trials but that would not be true.

But With God I reach no more for a drink or smokes. I began reaching for God. With Jesus I went to work not in despair. With Jesus, I went through more earth shattering moments but stood in The Strength of The Lord. With Jesus He guide me through each and every storm in my Life and showed me who I Am. The I Am that call me out of the pits of society. The I am that heal my broken heart, and put my broken pieces back together. The I Am who shape me, mold me to be All I can be In Him. The I Am who came down from His Heavenly Throne to paid the price for the sins of humanity, The I Am who pick me up turn me around and place my feet on solid ground.  All Because He Love me. The I Am who is The Lover of my soul, The I Am who is The Sustainer of My Mind, The I Am who came in the flesh in The person name Jesus The Christ which means  Salvation for He is our Salvation. The I Am who is showing me how to walk with Him, and talk with Him as He draws me into a Spiritual Intimate Relationship as His presence rest upon my heart.

He Drew Me unto Him, for Jesus said No One come unto me unless My father who sent me drew them, and I will raise him/her up at The last day. So I praise Him to this very day I live, and breathe to worship Him. For Jesus Says in John 12:26-32 If any man serve me, let him follow me, and where I AM, there shall also my servant be: but for this cause came I unto this hour. Father, glorify thy name. Then came there a voice from heaven, saying, I have both glorified it, and will Glorify it again. The people therefore, that stood by, and heard it, said, that it thundered, other said, An angel spake to Him. Jesus answered and said, This voice came not because of me, but for your sakes. Now is the judgment of this world, now shall the Prince of this world be cast out. And I, If Lifted up from The earth will draw All man unto me.

This Flower Is Called Mourning Glory

I Feel His presence within, reshaping my very being each and everyday embracing what is laid out for me from the intimate mourning prayer, to the caring  preparations for my mother during her illness, to the  devotional time inspired by The Holy Spirit, to The reading of His Word,

 and doing chores while worshiping The Lord with the praise music. Giving Him all 

The Glory gets me  through my day.  Now I  Hunger  and  Thirst for 

The Righteousness of God to take over my life, I pray that all

will learn  how to enter  into  His Glorious   presence 
until the overflow is spread out all around us and 
reach to those who have yet to know our
Lord and revive those who do.
In The Name of Jesus I cry out with A Nazarite Cry, 

I find in Him my Passion, and Pleasure until I'm consumed with 

The Spirit of Burning.  It’s His  love He Place In Me   that  Draws me  to Him.

Nazarite Cry

IN THE SINCERITY OF THE HOLY SPIRIT

Sis. Seer Trudy